Blog/Journal Type Entries

Every Little Thing's Gonna Be Alright

As it sometimes happens, life has swallowed me whole. Most often, this is a negative effect of everything going on in my life. Stress, worry, and anxiety plague me. But these past few weeks have been a stark departure from the status quo.

I subscribe to astrology apps that provide simple horoscopes, and also apps that do deep dives based on your natal charts. The other day, I was reading through one such deep dive from an app called the Pattern. Usually, the Pattern will spell out your cosmic timing and break it down so you gain a better understanding of what you may be experiencing.

There are usually two or three categories called "Impacts" presented. When I checked my pattern a few days ago, there was one singular impact presented to me. It was labeled "Neutral Timing".
Upon delving it, the gist of the impact was, that for me, with the current planetary alignments, there simply isn't anything going on. It advised me to sit back and enjoy a whole lot of nothing.

At first, I scratched my head, and I think I said, out loud, "Okie dokie, then!" And shrugged my shoulders. Then, as I settled into what I was seeing, my post traumatic messaging came barreling through, like, "HEY! This can't be possible! There's nothing going on? What do I do with that?"

I have decided to lean into it. When I think about it, I giggle, as I sigh, and accept that it is okay for me to not have any major stressors ruling my life. I can continue to settle into my cozy little apartment, with the love of my life, and embrace what I am becoming.

I spend my days working on my vintage reselling business, baking and cooking, exploring frugal living ideas, and planning our wedding. My biggest source of anxiety has become color palletes, decorating our home, and finding baking recipes that do not include eggs.

I am the happiest that I have ever been in my entire life. Is everything absolutely perfect? Not by a long shot. But I am learning to quell the voice of cortisol, calling out for me to find something, anything, to worry about. The world will gladly hand you something to feel bad about, and you won't have to look very far to find it.

But I am choosing to embrace the peace that the universe has laid gently in my lap. There are raisins on the dining table, soaking in hot water to plump them up for oatmeal cookies later. Butter is on the counter softening. There are still bins to unpack, jammed with long forgotten treasures, bags of clothing to be processed and photographed for the online business. There are also so many smiles and kisses to take in from my handsome fiancé.

Life, finally, is good.