Team Ahimsa Blog Relay, Various Contests

I wish I could

For "Note: 48-HOUR CHALLENGE : Media Prompt Deadl..."

I wish I could express myself the way she does. Over the years, I haven't been able to tell one or two guys my feelings for them - I guess I'm too scared of rejection and spoiling a friendship. The only relationship I had was 'arranged'. I was engaged to the guy for six months till he broke it off suddenly on his mother's orders. I heard, from a mutual friend, that he cried a lot after that.

Anyway, I've always felt inadequate as a woman because I haven't had a proper relationship. I know I don't need validation - blah blah - at an intellectual level, but not at an emotional level. It doesn't help that the airwaves are full of messages like 'you're nobody till somebody loves you'. They mean romantic love - and in this case, I'm nobody.

This song just made me think that maybe if I could express myself better things would be different.