Susie's

Mixed Feelings

On my way home last night I had mixed feelings,
I'd received a message that Ozzy had passed away, what was the atmosphere going to be like at home regarding the girls, I'd had a hard day at work and it was nearly kick off time in the Euro's with the Lionesses taking on Italy,
Lisa was first to greet me and led me to the bathroom where a bath awaited me, she washed and soothed me,
Ozzy and Black Sabbath music filled the house,
Lisa had my England football outfit ready for me,
Downstairs we were all in our England shirts, I turned off the music,
I had us all sit down with a glass of wine and asked the question,
"Tulisa-rose and Alessia are you in a relationship together?",
They both said they were,
Melissa told them they shouldn't be and end it as they were family,
I think they'd rehearsed it and told us if we tried to stop them they'd both leave home,
The last thing we wanted was for them to leave home,
Myself, Lisa and Melissa retired to the kitchen to discuss the matter,
We agreed they could be together as long as their relationship was within the house which also would give us time to decide what to do with them,
We told them our decision and they cuddled each other with Alessia saying "just let us be happy",

The football started, the wine flowed, the tension began as England were 1-0 down,
We scored, it was 1-1, we cheered,
I looked over to see Rosie and Alessia kissing each other,
They both looked cute together but I was being torn apart inside as they were my daughter's,
Lisa was getting angry and told me to concentrate on the football,

There was extra time in the football so I went to get some more wine from the kitchen, Melissa followed me and just told me to "stay strong Susie" regarding the girls,
The football finished with England winning 2-1 so we were all happy,

Rosie and Alessia headed upstairs returning in their nighties,
They were making it very clear they were an item holding each others hands or arms around each other,

Last night in bed Lisa was very accommodating with me but at the back of my mind reality set in that Rosie and Alessia were accommodating each other.

I still had a lot of thinking to do.