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Seven Degrees Left of Center

by Dale Ricky

Rated: 13+ · Book · Personal · #2276168

Each day feels new, and my memory of the one before is faint. I’m learning to adapt.

In September 2019, a seizure revealed a lime-sized meningioma pressed against my hippocampus—the part of the brain that governs memory and language. The doctors said it was benign, but benign didn’t mean harmless.

Surgery removed the tumor, and three days later I opened my eyes to a new reality. I could walk, I could talk, but when I looked at my wife, her name was gone. I called her Precious—the only word I could find. A failure of memory, yet perhaps the truest name of all.

Recovery has been less cure than re-calibration. Memory gaps are frequent. Conversations vanish. I had to relearn how to write, letter by halting letter. My days are scaffold by alarms, notes, and calendars.

When people ask how I am, I don’t list symptoms or struggles. I simply say, “Seven Degrees Left of Center.” It’s not an answer—it’s who I’ve become.

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JACE

a day ago
In response to "6 a.m., Second Half"

A win is A WIN! No matter how small it seems, it buoys you up. Savor it as it happens.

JACE

Dec 5, 2025 at 8:27am
In response to "What Was I Thinking?"

It's funny you should mention this very topic. I've always lived by an adage I read in a Tom Clancy book (Debt of Honor): "If you don't write it down, then it never happened." I live by those words and keep a small notebook on me at all times.

Lately, I've noticed every so often that I jot down a short point, and when I look at it some days later, I find I didn't add enough 'meat' to the thought to remember exactly where I was going with it. There's a phrase that Sec of Defense Pete Hegseth has used (incorrectly) recently: "It's the fog of war." Maybe my issue is the fog of memory. Yikes!

I hope you're right and our future selves will sort it out.

Kåre เลียม Enga

Dec 2, 2025 at 12:20pm
In response to "What It Means When Your Novel Has Legs"

I've experienced this in the past. These days? My Muse is snoozing. But, yes, I remember times when my muse took over and time flowed around me.

JACE

Nov 21, 2025 at 10:00am
In response to "Reading My Own Writing Like a Stranger"

What a unique perspective, Dale Ricky. It's one I've never really thought about regarding my own writing.

However, Schnujo did remind me that I've done reviews of someone's work that I didn't remember giving. Once in a great while an item will come across my page that I find interesting enough to read and review. Then I scroll to the Review Tool, only to find I already reviewed it some years back. Sometimes I wonder what I was thinking when I wrote that review.

Sumojo

Nov 21, 2025 at 9:12am
In response to "Reading My Own Writing Like a Stranger"

This happens to me all the time! It’s that Read and Review! Nothing ever goes away her on WdC does it? Suddenly I’m presented with a review from something written so long ago when I was someone else as a writer. I cringe, make excuses for my bad writing, for glaring errors and beg forgiveness.😂

Kåre เลียม Enga

Nov 18, 2025 at 11:25am
In response to "What to Write About When You Have Nothing?"

Well said. The mundane inspires when nothing else does.

JACE

Nov 14, 2025 at 9:17am
In response to "In Between Writing Projects"

Interesting observation. My creative writing period is first thing after rising in the morning. Whether I finish my story or not, the longest timeframe I can write is about an hour. It's as if my brain kicks off. An idea may occur to me during the day, which I'll jot down. But it seldom comes with an urge to write.

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Kåre เลียม Enga

Nov 14, 2025 at 8:43am
In response to "In Between Writing Projects"

I get that way between travels. If I'm not careful I wait too long.

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Amethyst Snow Angel

Nov 14, 2025 at 7:05am
In response to "In Between Writing Projects"

I usually feel the same way in between projects, especially since mine are often under a deadline. When I'm done, I spend the spare time in between catching up on my music. Do you like music? How does it affect your brain?

Love and blessings

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TeeGateM

Nov 7, 2025 at 9:11am
In response to "Too Many Projects, Too Little Brain Space"

The creative mind - yep me too!

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December 5, 2025 at 6:30am

#1102998

What Was I Thinking?

I am reading through my manuscript today, and I keep asking myself one question. What was I thinking? Some sentences feel stronger than I remember. Others feel like they were written by a tired raccoon with a keyboard. I flip pages and find surprises that make me laugh, cringe, or reach for more coffee.

This is the strange joy of reviewing a draft. I meet the past version of myself, the one who wrote late at night and trusted I would understand the note that says “fix this later.” Now I stare at it and wonder what “this” was supposed to be. I thought I would remember. I did not.

Still, there is something comforting in this chaos. I can see how far the story has come. I can also see where it needs help. That is the real purpose of reading a manuscript with honest eyes. Every rough sentence is a chance to improve. Every confusing moment is a signpost pointing to the next edit.

So I keep going. I shake my head. I laugh at my own choices. I fix what needs fixing. I remind myself that no writer thinks clearly during a first draft. We just write and hope our future selves will sort it out.

And here I am, sorting it out with coffee in hand and a sense of humor. It is messy, but it means the story is growing.

“What was I thinking?” is not a failure. It is the beginning of the rewrite.

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