Love Lost

Something I wrote some time ago that I want to share.

I sit here bored out of my mind thinking constantly of the same thing "You." I cannot seem to get you off my mind you are always there, and I never get tired of your voice. I am always thinking of ways we will be together the circumstances on which will cause us to come together. I lost you when I did not really have you I have been trying to get my head around that it is just crazy really.

My heart aches, as it never has before. It is like I am bleeding and I do not have an open wound. A wound that will never heal no matter how much time passes it will always bleed for you until you return to me with the missing piece to my heart. I will be forever in pain, cursed to relive our final moments together, relive you breaking my heart killing all the love I have so that everything is numb so numb it is damn near dead never able to open up to anyone like I so freely opened up to you.

At night when anything is possible in dreams, I dream of you and me. I dream of our life together, of how the world I exist in is wrong and real world is the dream. Oh how I wish I could make my dream come true, but the reality is that we are not together and I have to move on with my life. However, at the same time I feel like if I do I am missing a chance at being with you hoping against hope that I still have a chance at being with you.

Why isn't love ever easy? Something like...boy meets girl, falls in love with girl, girl falls in love with boy, and they live happily together? I know the answer to my question; nothing in life is worth anything without some hardship to get it.