Liar

Feeling so painful inside..

I keep smiling

But, I'm tearing apart

All these feelings

Tells me to stop.

I keep lying & smiling

Becoming a monster inside,

All these tears

Gonna wash away my color.

I keep lying & smiling

Trying to keep myself

Safe for the moment,

All these feelings & tears

Clotting together in my heart,

Making me beast

Waiting for its food for years.

I keep lying & yet smiling

I don't want the world

To watch me cry.

But, that's all I got

A self of mine,

Made on lies,

And that's all I've left.

Couldn't keep it in

Can't keep it up, anymore

Feel like bursting into tears

Gonna shout out loud and cry.

I keep lying &saying, "I am okay"

But, somewhere it tells me I'm not.

I've got everything beside me

Couldn't get hold of it

If I can, I wanna just

Hug and Cry all I want.

I keep lying to myself

putting a smile

showing the world

I'm okay, it's alright.

I keep lying & smiling

Getting sucked up inside

I'm just, I don't know what.

I keep lying & smiling

Fed up of hiding,

All these feelings

Just wanna stop.

Yet, I keep lying

Such a bad liar.