| I feel so silly, but I have such sour grapes over a novel that came out a couple months ago. I had started writing a novel where I had planned out a lot of stuff and written a fair bit but lost it to my computer dying. I hadn't had the heart to go back to it yet knowing I'd have to rewrite everything I had from memory. Now a popular author has released a novel with the same premise. I'm reading it now and it's really good, I'm genuinely loving it, but I'm also just a bit bitter, like "see! it was a good idea! that could be me!" But I also feel a bit discouraged from writing right now, because I guess anyone could write what I write. Anyway, I just wanted to whine a little, and I figured if I posted this anywhere else I would just seem unhinged, but I know folks here get it. |
| I woke up so incredibly sick today, I don't even know what to do with myself. I had a twinge in my throat yesterday from the mucous which I thought was entirely allergy related (so of course I took my monthly dose of my immunosuppressive medication which will for sure make being sick much worse), but today I have head and chest congestion, full body aches, a headache, a sore throat, and a voice that's going. I'm at that weird state of consciousness where I'm aware enough to be bored and overthinking my discomforts, but not alert enough to really enjoy doing anything. |
| I went to a poetry event at the local public library tonight and the headlining poet gave some incredible advice that I had to share. Sarah Yi-Mei Tsiang said when it comes to rejection, she likes to play "rejection chicken": every time she hits ten rejections, she gets a bucket of fried chicken. I don't really like fried chicken (I don't do meat off the bone), but I have to incorporate something like this as I prepare to submit more things for contest/publication |
| The painsomnia is so bad tonight that I've been writing pain themed poetry based on verses from the Torah and Talmud while I wait for more medications to hopefully kick in. At least I'm getting something done I guess |
| Mishlei (Proverbs) - Chapter 31, 6-7 (Chabad.rog) 6. Give strong drink to the one who is perishing and wine to those of bitter soul. ותְּנוּ־שֵׁכָ֣ר לְאוֹבֵ֑ד וְ֜יַיִן לְמָ֣רֵי נָֽפֶשׁ: 7. Let him drink and forget his poverty, and let him remember his misery no more. זיִשְׁתֶּה וְיִשְׁכַּ֣ח רִישׁ֑וֹ וַ֜עֲמָל֗וֹ לֹ֣א יִזְכָּר־עֽוֹד: |
| I can't seem to figure out how to do it on my own. How do I stop being a fan of someone on here? When you press the thing to remove them as a favourite, it still keeps them as a fan, which I don't want. I've never even wanted to try this before, but there's some content that I really don't care to have in my newsfeed and I can't figure out how to make it go away. |
| See your port in the top right corner? Click on it and your favourite will pop out. I am on mobile and forgot how it looks on desktop. Bottomline is click on 'Favourite' at the top right panel then click on the Authors tab. You will see x. Click on the x to remove favourite. |
| Elycia Lee ☮ |
| To stop following or being a fan of someone on desktop, click on My Account, then Favorites. It will list all the people and groups you're following - just click the small x beside the name to remove the entry. If you just want to hide certain notes or people from a newsfeed, there's a small downward arrow at the top right of every post. Click on that and choose the option you want. This isn't as strong as an actual block, it just hides their posts on the feed. |
| Alright, so computer update. Replacing the hard drive didn't work because even though my hard drive IS toast, apparently so is my motherboard! My motherboard is proprietary, which means that in my case I cannot buy any motherboard that isn't the exact one I have because it won't fit. This could be quite difficult and/or pricy for me to manage, and I simply can't on disability. So my actual plan involves replacing the motherboard AND the case. I need time to scrape together the cash for these additional parts I wasn't counting on getting. In the meantime, I've been provided with a temporary solution! My mother's place of work was getting rid of a computer that was in good condition because it's no longer suitable for what they were using it for, and she was able to bring this home for me to use until I can find a good price on the parts I still need. So I have a computer! It isn't mine, but it's good to have one that I can use for my daily stuff without any concerns. It's just a shame that it didn't work out to have a computer up and running for GOT. And speaking of GOT! Congrats to the winners, everyone who placed in top three, and to House Mormont for still doing okay even though I couldn't be the leader I wanted to this time around. Hopefully we can eventually have another I can participate in properly! |
| A family friend has purchased a new hard drive for me as a gift, which is incredibly sweet. He got it much cheaper than I could have by purchasing out of country (he regularly crosses the border for work), and he should have it to me some time this weekend. I'm so bummed my computer troubles meant I didn't really get to do GOT, because I wanted to so badly, but I'm grateful that my computer should be up and running soon. I'm also excited to just be able to do my regular things after being off my schedule for weeks (I'm autistic, so off schedule is NOT the vibe). Fingers crossed that this sorts everything out for me! |
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