There Once Was A Friend

In a town not on a map where time doesn't exist if you don't change for the better fate

There once was a friend
I took time to get to know
Though I never will
Memory does not serve me well
My friend was as the days
How they came and go
A friendship truly fleeting
Wasting time and drinking beer
All good things come to an end
if some things never change
It's like he disappeared
Even the neighbors who knew him best
Say that man was never here
I always thought everyone was weird
Now Im  truly scared
Questioning myself
Was there really once a friend?
Did I  even care ? am I only selfish ?
Both are emotive
One inevitably becomes
Hateful self-destructive
One if proven true
Can bloom into what is called true love
I should know the difference
I wish I was a better friend
I didn't want  to get old and move on
I'd rather stay fucked up
And wonder why I'm alone
Where are the birds?
I wouldn't be forgotten in this small town
With only two traffic lights
You can't  find on a map
A place ignored by time
Better yet left behind
For those who don't deserve to live
This small town was founded by your own fate