My Life

Just a reminder that we could control every single emotions just by writing.

In such a world full of nemesis,I have caught myself in a form full of wonders.I ponder around reflecting on what life is and what life is to me and then I question myself what am I doing?

I try so hard to think highly of myself when in reality I am just a caged being full of myself, reacting had always been my favorite attitude to try and feel amongst the multitude.

Everyday I wake up knowing that one day I would perish but does that mean I was ever cherished? It flows in my head ,my mind on how life could treat me differently but sometimes I feel like I should be in rehab when I am well aware I am not a maniac.

I felt so much sorry for myself,I felt drained, bipolar,a destroyer I could say anytime I do something I felt was right just to feel alright ,but ended up making my entire being spite

I have made so many mistakes in my life to be loved not knowing the greatest love I could ever give myself is that of discipline which I never possessed.

Could we talk about the counts on my body ,the damage I made to my soul,what was it for? Just to wonder around like a lost stray puppy wanting to be loved

Yes I did many things that myself non cultured but it will be foolish of me to replicate such errors

I might not have the things I fancy which makes me lanky but I have trained my thoughts to dwell more on my aspirations rather than my past failures

I had lost the trust of others ,even lost the trust of myself , deceived and isolated from a world I still live in and why is that? I could never tell the end from my beginnings but now I have something to hold on to,the thought of winning to fight my obstacles and turn the tables,how elated I am knowing I would become something from nothing.

I had always felt something missing now I know my actual wishes,now I own something a treasure I could say my very first ever made poem which makes me feel fulfilled to serve as an inspiration to people that there was ones a failure that turner out to be a warrior.