Erase it all

i guess we all had that time, right? when all we wanted was to just forget things

It hurts; it really does
The hopelessness when strength is what you need the most
The emptiness after witnessing what you don't want to, yet you don't have the chance to resist
It hurts so much, it really does

Is it too much to just forget something?
Why Is it, sometimes, that hard to let go of just one thing?
Just one thing to throw away, that's all to be desired
And yet it sticks to your heart, mind and soul draining them from life, leaving you in your struggle so tired
"Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional"
That is what minds of wisdom used to say in the old days, taking away pain in situations it seemed impossible
But those were the old days, now apparently, we changed our ways
Maybe we're actually enjoying the suffering now, as it brings others easily around us
Maybe it was never hard to let go of the pain, but rather the attention it brought to us

Yet...isn't that sad? to feed on your own misery?
Drowning yourself in it, and whoever tries to pull you up becomes almost an enemy?
I know recovery can take time, it's only natural
But why drag it out longer than it should?
Until you eventually go back to square one, refusing to get out of there even though you could?

Or maybe the pain is just too strong, and in that case i understand
Maybe it really drains the life out of you while barely giving you any options at hand
Sometimes things are just hopeless, and the shackles of despair are so strong and tight
Locked on all limbs so well, not able to move let alone fight

Sometimes, those moments come. so strong they even make the strongest, at the right moment, fall
Making the biggest wish we have is to enter our own heads and just erase it all