Song of the Prodigal (inner perpective)

This is a song about some of the ways i felt as a Prodigal

Song lyrics are by me, voice and instruments are by AI,

[doesnt matter how long its been, your loved and you can always come home]


Lyrics:

Lost on the road, trying to go my own way.

I felt like I could do it alone
This spiral road, that im traveling on

Which way do i go, I dont know, all i know is I am far from Home…

[chorus] where do i go from here?! Why are these shackles following me?!

Why is the world weighing me down, feel so crushed! barley can make a sound

[in a soft crying voice] Am I truly Alone? Am I alone [end of Chorus]

Trying to find peace from drugs. silencing my voice to stop the violence, & hate beat into me.

Yeah I walked away, I lost my faith

Now All I can do is ask…

where do i go from here?! Why are these nightmares chasing me?!

Why is the world hating me

[in a soft crying voice] Am I truly Alone? Am i alone…

I go to sleep at night, I dream about the pain.

Go to school be bullied, go back home, the bullies follow me.

weekends arnt safe, go to church a bully is there.

this church hurt, runs so deep, bullied at school, home, church & in my dreams, i cant escape it.

I can only ask…

where do i go from here?! Why are these voices hunting me?!

I cant shake their whispers, their push to the extreme.

Why are these thoughts pursuing me?!

Why does the world not want me, feel so broken beyond repair…

i cry myself to sleep but no tears fall down for crying is weak.

[in a soft crying voice] Am I truly Alone? Why Am I alone.

All their whispers and words saying im a monster because of my disability

Why should i live in such misery

their words saying im a disgrace to the human race.

All of their words saying IM better off dead.

Yeah; 1 attempt; 2 attempt; i failed.

[sung in a soft crying voice] God are you there? Why do i feel so numb…so numb.

Why do I feel like the world doesnt care im here…in the mental ward;

[in a soft crying voice] Am I truly Alone? Am I... alone…

But my pastors they came…sat with me…arm around me… told me im loved…that im not alone… Im not a mistake

where do i go from here?! Why are they saying this now

Do they really care?! Or is it just pity?!

[in a soft crying voice] Am I truly Alone? Am I alone! GOD ANSWER ME!! Dont Abandon Me!

[in a soft whisper sung slowly and angelic] and a voice… whispered… “your not alone, I am here… yeah I have never left you. even when you were born without a heartbeat… I was there, I’ll be by your side through all of your years… you got a purpose; yeah your not worthless”

where do i go from here?! What can I do; i dont know where to go!

Yeah! Why do I feel like the world is telling me one thing then say another

[in a soft crying voice] Am I truly not Alone? Am I not alone, oh God help me fight this suicidal misery;

A few years later; I went down…fell on my knees at the alter.

OH God Help! Me! Save! Me! Im tired of running!! tired of being a prodigal!

A light came running through my soul, now my past doesn’t determine my future.

Yeah I am Home!! I am home!! I am home!!

Im not Alone!! Im not alone!! Im not alone!!

Cause I got Jesus, My healer, my redeemer, Grace giver.

who will always be my friend.
even in the darkest days ahead… I am Home, & Im never running away again.

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YouTube link:

https://youtu.be/yifcEe9C4gs?si=Tx0B4_cuPY9neVNx


Took so many versions and tries to get it to come out close enough, and yes AI skipped over a little but thats ok, hope you enjoy