This Is Where I Rot - 24.09.2025

These are the bits of me I don’t say out loud. Some of them make no sense. Also TW

Hello, it's Echo here, welcome back to my YouTube channel. Today, we are going to unbox the contents of my brain. So sit back and enjoy the shitshow. Also, please speak up, I can't hear today in my left ear.

So yesterday we talked about my plan to make my move this week on him, no? HE FUCKING GOT SICK FFS. C'mon, Echo, don't be a bitch, calmly tell the story. FFS, he got sick.

Anyways, the morning started, well... it started. First of All, I was out of cigs, so I was already riled the fuck up. Quick reporting to the boss, and let's just get into my car to do some field work. So I get to the job site, and we start doing the regular checking and being happy little campers. The only thing on my mind is this hangout that we have planned. Everyone around me is like, TF is wrong with you? Why are you smiling?

Oh, honey, in my mind, I have been making out with him for the past 2 hours. So anyways, boss rolls around and we start explaining the site jobs that need to be done, and so on. So we walk around the building, and to my surprise, most of the stuff I am suggesting is being okayed by him. so we get to a part where we are kind of not really sure what to do, and he is like, call xy (my cursh) so he sends some pictures of the other site where he is at, so we can see if we can replicate that in our side.

I call my crush, and I hear him is sick. Immediate shock. Like honey, let me tell ya, the room was spinning out of control. So we agree that he sends pictures (unfortunately, not dick pics). So I text him, are you sick? He is like "yuh".

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKK. I planned to go out and to be made out with.... LETS SAY IT TOGETHER, I DID NOT PLAN THIS...

So what would a normal person do, accept it and wish him to get better, what would Echo do? Inspect the insides of the new trash cans, a.k.a. THROW THE FUCK UP. fuck

So I text him that my mood is now all fucked, he did not understand why. So I text my homo honey crying (acting like I am doing work on my phone) that the date is now over (it never was a date). so I asked her to clench her, you know, and start manifesting for me.

So I go to an other site alone and we are discussing work with the employees there and all, and suddenly boss lady of the site is like, I need some internal transfers. So I am like yea sure, so I go to an other site to get the parcels needed for her and all, when I return she is like, why are you mad and so on and so and so on. She knows the both of us, so I explain the situation and all.

So now her phone rings, gues who is calling her? Guess who? My crush. He also needs some internal transfers. Wow, my home honey must have not been to the toilet for a long time.

So he tells him that I am on her site and she can send the parcels to him via me. OH FFS I did not plan this. Time to check the toilets of this boss lady. Like at this point if I get excited or nervous I just throw the fuck. Yayy Mr. Stomach, you are doing great sweetie.

So I return, and she hands me the parcels. I start driving, and get to the back of the building he is at. I get in hand him the parcels, and immediately storm out to the back. Yes, Echo you are good at this, you want him to take you to heaven or higher, but you just storm the fuck out. So I light a ciggy at this point and he comes out to me. So we talk and I tell him that I know for a fact he is going to ball on me and not go out with me. He tells me, no. TF? He wants to go out? With me? TF?

So we light ciggy after ciggy and we talk. We are the only ones behind the building at this point. It is fair to note that my left ear is fucked up can't really hear with it. Must be from all the clubbing from the past. Anywho we talk and talk and talk. Suddenly he moves to a place where the CCTV does not see, and he starts to talk quieter. So I move in closer, so I hear what the fuck he is talking about, I did not pay attention, his polo shirt was unbuttoned. Fuck and his smileeeee, oh for crying out loud, I am sooooo falling for him.

He is smiling at me? Why? And he is looking at me like I am a piece of Lasagne and he is Garfield? TF? At this point I am not so sure this happened or my mind is playing games, like he was moving closer to me, almost like he was about to kiss me? For real IDK if this was real at this point. When the thing would happeen this peace of fuck employee just walks out and now nothing is happening. Also this whore told me the hair color I have is not suiting me. Go to hell you whore...

So I go away cuz I need to be somewhere for a site check again. Yup this was a hectic day for site checks. Anyways, we don't text for a while but then he randomly text me again?

What the hell is going on? So I spent the last 5 hours thinking about this situation, like am I making this up or what the hell is going on? Are we going out for real? Fuck my stomach is killing me again as I am writing this. FML

IDK if today I am rotting, well my stomach for sure is, but like mentally I am all over the place, both lustful and confused AF.