I’d Rather Be Delulu Than Sane

Understand that "Mental illness" wasn't always framed this way under the pathology module.

Being "delusional" has brought me great joy instead of being "normal" and nobody with a defective brain would understand unless they themselves are delulu too.

I would rather be delulu than sane, because normies have made this world UNBEARABLE.

People think working 9-5 is liberation, what truly is liberation is loving who you are underneath the trauma that's been caused over the course of your whole life.

That being said, it's imperative people remember several things:

- "Mental illness" was once revered in ancient history.

- "Idolizing" is closer to trying not to drown in this horrible world that will eat your voice alive, especially if you DARE look at schizophrenia or VERY PARTICULAR "mental illnesses" in the light instead of the darkness.

- Eating people alive for trying to love themselves is a grade A jerk move, or dogpiling onto them as though their outline and outlook of "mental illness" is wrong.

- People do "suffer", but it's more from society's expectations and the weight of being called a burden and useless all the time.

- My suffering is made worse by society; I don't know about other people's experiences as I cannot speak for you or anyone else reading this, but mine is pushed to the limit by an uncaring society.

- the Neurodivergent lens is an important and heavily critical lens of the medical pathology module, which we just call each other burdens and such for being different under the pathological lens, and reframing that lens using the Neurodiversity module instead.

- Pathological warfare is very real, and we weaponize it daily against each other for the most trivial things...things that make us literally human...

Anyway, why I'm writing this is because I am tired of pathological warfare.

I have been in eight psych wards, force sedated four times, civilly committed twice...

And my diagnostics all these times were Schizophrenic Bipolar.

I'm almost positive it's Derealization/Depersonalization into DID/OSDD and Schizophrenia.

Schizophrenic Personality Disorder or something along the lines.

But don't worry, my life is a joke—remember?

No one ever takes me seriously anyway even though I've been fighting the system since birth and my first brain diagnosis.

Why did we make life such literal crap for people?

I'll never understand....