Not being loved.

Have you taste the sadness of not being loved by father as you want in your childhood.

The sadness which born in your heart when you see the love of you father of other, which you wish to be loved that way but you haven't even taste that loved. In my childhood I haven't see that love if my father eventhough he was always around me, but he was absent for me. He doesn't give me the value for when I was capable.
And when you become adult and you see your father love for other, so you're crying from inside and can't bear this pain.
I think I haven't see the love at all because now I don't know how to love other eventhough I am pretty young. Boys at my age have girlfriends or they are married, but still I haven't feel anything in my heart for others. I just want to go away, far away from the people, I want to go to place where no one knows me and I don't know anyone.