PRESS PAUSE, THEN PLAY

something about the monotonous life and never ending to do lists

June is almost over, and I can’t ignore it any longer: with only four days left in the month, I haven’t done anything I’d call memorable. I’ve been trapped in the “tomorrow I’ll start” cycle—waking up each morning with a heavy heart and a drained battery—while deadlines slipped by and my own goals went unpursued. So today, I’m pausing to face the truth: yes, I’ve felt lazy, frustrated, and unsatisfied, but I can choose to turn that around—even if it’s just a little.
I’ll begin by honoring every feeling I’ve pushed away: the regret, the disappointment, even the embarrassment. Kuch bhi hua ho, just take it, feel it—let those emotions wash over me without judgment. Then I’ll take a deep breath and let them go, clearing space for something more hopeful.
My aim isn’t some grand life overhaul; it’s wonderfully simple:
Live without regret. No more looking back wishing I’d tried.
Be a good person. Kindness first, to myself and others.
Follow my own passions. Not the ones people expect of me, but the ones that set my heart on fire.
I adore my parents and am endlessly grateful to have them, but this one precious life is mine to shape. I love writing—it feels like a lifeline to my truest self—so I’ll honor that. I might also discover new passions: perhaps through books, art, or simply trying something unfamiliar. I trust that whatever truly belongs to me will reveal itself.
And here are my concrete steps, starting now:
Tonight: I’ll write for five focused minutes—no distractions, no excuses.
Tomorrow morning: I’ll read just one page of a book I’ve wanted to explore.
This weekend: I’ll do something completely new—maybe sketch, maybe dance, maybe cook a recipe I’ve never tried—anything that sparks curiosity.
Small actions, compounded day by day, become meaningful change. By next June, I want to look back and say, “I did something memorable.” So here’s to beginnings—one tiny step at a time—and to living a life defined by my own hopes, not my fears. Signing off with love, determination, and just a spark of excitement for what comes next.